Blog Challenge #08: What do you find most difficult/challenging about blogging?

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There are actually two things I find really difficult, and it's not even funny anymore. The first one is staying committed to writing on the blog. I sometimes get a lot of ideas, open Notepad and write these ideas down, but when it comes to develop them on the blog, it takes months. I deleted some of those notes, but I still have enough that I could write about. Somehow I always find a reason not to. They are reasons like, "oh, I have work", "oh, there is this other thing I have to do", "oh, I spent hours watching videos on yt." 

The second most difficult thing is my critic side. I write something, and if there is even a word, a way I phrased, or if I don't find the post length appropriate, I'm not posting. And then a few months pass and I delete whatever I previously wrote and start all over with different subjects, same issues. 

When I write it's really great, but when I get to correcting I am the worse. I feel like sometimes I really do try too hard, and I should be easier on myself, but I just can't help it. Of course I can't make everything sound and look exactly the way I want to, and I should start listening to the advice I give to other people and that I strongly believe. The thing is, when you write something, you are there from start to finish, you control the whole process, and no one is going to see the things the same way you do. That's why people that draw amazingly tend to not believe you when you praise them, because they know every single line, every stroke that they erased or redid. Same as writing, you know every word you changed, every paragraph you cut off. 

Another thing that just crossed my mind that I find difficult is letting myself all out. I am a very private person, you don't ask, I don't tell (I actually got this small quote from somewhere, and I relate to it strongly), so just writing stuff about myself, about what I believe, feels like people might take it the wrong way, although I can't see one single valid reason that could happen. I wonder if anyone feels like this too, I can't be the only one, right? I also don't want to post a badly, half assed written post. It just doesn't sit well with me and it makes me feel bad even when said post lays as a draft.

TL;DR: Three most difficult things about blogging for me are commitment, being a perfectionist, and not wanting the articles to look like I try too hard or not trying at all. （ー_ー；）

P.S. again: I actually think this post could have looked better, but on the bright side this challenge seems to really keep me writing and posting no matter what. Also, I should have posted this yesterday, but I was so sleepy after work that I couldn't.